Thursday, July 15, 2010
Chaos
Went in for T yesterday and I have several other crisis going on in my present life. So the emdr session didnt happen. So we talked about the things that are going on and came up with a plan. 1st We have to keep me stable and out of crisis in order to deal with my past. I wish it were not that way but it is.
I feel like I have the same feelings that I did this time last year. Well they are not exactly the same feelings..they are very similiar feelings of being out of control, chaos, swimming thoughts, and sure of only a couple of things. The only thing I am sure of is my beating heart and the love I have for my dogs. I hate having no control of things that are going on around me but effect my life. It leaves me feeling confused and crazy.
I feel like I have the same feelings that I did this time last year. Well they are not exactly the same feelings..they are very similiar feelings of being out of control, chaos, swimming thoughts, and sure of only a couple of things. The only thing I am sure of is my beating heart and the love I have for my dogs. I hate having no control of things that are going on around me but effect my life. It leaves me feeling confused and crazy.
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wow, i can completely understand every word you have written. you are so brave to write about present pain. i am there too, and have not had the strength. i wonder how you are doing. please comment me, i really want to know how you are doing.
Reply Deletethanks for letting me know you were there a few months ago. i haven't been writing, i hope to be able to again soon.